First Day of Rebirth

Today is the first day of a fast/detox that I have committed to do for the month of February. Over the past year I have been basically abstaining form touch, love, men, etc. I have been tempted and gave into temptation twice, for two peoples names, which I will not reveal. What I realized in this year long process that touch is so important to me. I will melt as soon as touched. SO in this last month, I have decided to rid my body of any unwanted toxins so that I can have more energy and vitality.

Since I have decided to do this I have certainly been over indulging. So while I am on this quest I thought that I would document my experience. I know that this is going to take alot of will power. Part of me wants to do this for healing, cleansing, but I also want to do it because I feel like I need something to commit to for a certain period of time. In this walk I also have given up porn. This has been an interesting experience. I would love to explore my sexuality even more though, when I am with the right person and in the right place.

We will see... day one.

Day one will consist of water fast. Today, I will be making lots of phone calls for my grandparent’s birthday party. But most importantly, I will be meditating on Aissatou's store, my girl Neha in Peru and the BUDGET for a project that I have to turn in today. I also would like to start (again) and finish the Invitation, before I give it back to Sallome.

Lastly, I would like to make a plan for the next 30 days, so I know how to approach this the right way. I still have to take medication, which means that I will have to start eating something on Monday. I will do a three day water fast to start off and really conserve as much energy as possible to take me into the rest of February.